Six Days In
It’s been six days since Dave left. Don’t worry, i’ll loose count soon. All i can say is that it is one bumpy roller coaster ride. If you’ve ever been to Worlds of Fun and been on the Timberwolf you’ll have a pretty good idea of what i’m talking about. The boys are doing as good as expected. Nap time and bed time are the hardest. I usually go through the “where’s daddy? Daddy come home?” a few hundred times with Kasen before he starts welling up with tears from confusion. Jace has gotten a lot more quiet and usually breaks down once a day sobbing because he misses Dad. Frankly, i had been so caught up in getting the paperwork done, securing Davids apartment up there, and making sure he had everything he’ll need ready, that i hadn’t considered this part of it all. I knew we were going to miss him, but i didn’t think about exactly how the boys were going to react and deal with it. You know that feeling of wanting to dig a whole and burrow in until everything passes? Yup, that’s it. Then there are nights like last night where everything went smooth and i sat on the couch enjoying the peace and quiet for a few hours by myself. So like i said, rollercoaster.
So what are me and the boys doing to stay occupied? We are purging all unnecessary items, packing up things we don’t daily use, patching holes, painting walls, having movie nights, going to Panera Bread and coloring for two hours, and simply just trying to stay busy.
My main goal is trying to get our home rented out by the end of this month. Having a mortgage and having to pay rent for David, well it’s less then ideal.
I will say that i am not going at this alone. I don’t know where i’d be without my family. They have been helping as much as they can.
Watching the boys, helping pack, moving things over to my moms place. Simply; they are a God send.
We Skype with David whenever we can. But he’s extremely busy and will only be getting more and more busy. So those of you waiting on Part 2 of his last post may be on the edge of your seats a while longer. Poor guy stays up till 3am doing academy work and then back at class at 7am. So i probably shouldn’t force writing a blog post on him, he may not invite me to join him when this is all over.
I have to keep reminding myself to Enjoy the Journey. Some days its hard, some days a fail all day with that goal. But under all of the worry and stress and tears there is this surging emotion of excitement. I catch myself dreaming of what i want my life to be like when we get settled in. I know things don’t always work out the way you’ve planned but that isn’t going to stop me from dreaming!
Thank you everyone for all your prayers and well wishes. Every single one is appreciated. I promise a light hearted post next! This sad, sappy stuff is a real downer. There are some new pics from Davids iphone on the gallery page, might be worth a look.
Hug and kiss the ones you love tonight, no matter how much they drive you nuts at times 🙂